I'm alone now...

Yeah, you read it right! ... and times like this remind me of bliss moments together. I really miss it. These are what I love about my relationship…

1. waking up every morning and getting welcome with a very familiar face glancing at me

2. Seizing sunup with hugs and kisses and still finding it sweet even after more than 6 hours of sleep,

3. free-cuddles for half an hour until alarm begs us to get up and rush

4. taking every day’s breakfast together while discussing today’s errands

5. wishing me a good luck, a nice day ahead, I’ll miss you, see you this afternoon, take care and I love you through a single act of kiss before going to work.

6. a regular phone call in the mid of the day to confirm if I already had lunch.. follow-up question- WITH WHOM? (in a very suspicious tone)

7. playing tug-of-war WITH time just to rush off office and keeping myself waiting in a regular place where we always meet heading home

8. Dining together

9. being pampered with fine touches of powder to relax upon getting home

10. having a company and sharing big laugh in watching comedy until midnight

11. doing shower together

12. asking for more powder to dry and relax

13. enjoying minutes of conversations until getting sleepy

14. good night kiss

15. sound sleep

That’s the routine, but lately, my life turned out of ordinary. I woke-up in the mid of the night find myself in the empty room hugged in pillows. There were mornings when I kept myself awake much ahead of the mobile phone which suppose to buzz me up. There is no morning rush, yet I can finish my routine in a snap. No two sets of uniform to iron. I don’t even take my breakfast. Worst, I can leave the house and nobody wishing me the best of luck for the day- as if nobody care for me. (Sighs). Getting home is not as excited as before. Watching movies is the only way to kill the time. Comedy is no longer that funny. No more shower before bed. Nobody pampered me with powder, I can hardly reach my back. And to ease the feeling of emptiness the least thing I can do is to grab my notebook and browse our collections of photos stored in it…somehow it can bring me smile. The silence of the night added the feeling of aloneness and the thought of missing somebody really kill me. I never had good sleep just like before. I hate feeling like this…… being alone.

Ei, we are not breaking up. And I don’t think it will happen. The universe knew how much i love my relationship. My other half is in the business trip for four days now and I still have to wait for six days more- looking forward for weekend to come. Seriously, it too bad to spend days in a way that I am not used to be.