Honest Mistake...

To err is human. But this is not the thought that ran in my mind before I committed a fault this morning at work. Though it was purely an honest mistake ,who will believe anyway, especially if you’re working and dealing with fault-finding critics. Who will dare to listen and hear your justification when everyone involved were on denials and I , the newest part of the group and perceived less credible, left speechless, wondered and ate by total discomfiture acknowledged the whole responsibility to pause argument and pinpointing. I guess I already received enough embarrassments for the today and I got prepared myself for some more humiliations in coming days. I know that the issue will not remained silent in the four corners of the meeting room and I already accepted the fact that there are shallow people who will really take advantage of this opportunity for some trivial talks as sort of fun- other person’s downfall maybe others gain. Pathetic. That's my worst expectations and it is the prize I have to pay for incurring a mistake in time when I’m dealing with co-workers completely strangers and working with an office nursed by cultures totally different from what I had before.

I want to gain my self-respect this time since I already did the best things which i thought the way it should be. I admitted the fault and asked for a dignified apology. With that, I don't think i have to walk along the hall in a bow head. I never lost anything but a piece of ego- which is not an add-on my character. I will not blame myself, or anyone. Nobody likes making mistakes. unless one want to go through life as a complete recluse, and that's not me. Mistakes are essential part of going forward and self-improvement, more than just enduring on guilt and regrets. If you go through life afraid to make a mistake, you’ll spend most of it doing absolutely nothing. My sanity knew how much I tried to gain perfection, but the more I do it, the more I likely commit a slip. In the height of my battle against fault, rest assure that at any rate, I am really trying my very best to avoid mistakes at all costs.

On top of these, I’m always grateful for having a superior and mentor who never missed of reminding and inspiring me to work on perfections. Above all, I am too fortunate that she never give-up in believing and molding me to be the best who I can be despite the times that I slipped-up.